Update #17 -- False Alarm!

Update #17 — False Alarm!

When I was growing up, one of my very favorite movies was Grease. The last few weeks I kept thinking of the scene where Rizzo yells out to everyone at the carnival: “It was a false alarm!” She was referring…

Update #16 - Can't Have the Positive Without the Negative

Update #16 – Can’t Have the Positive Without the Negative

Doctors have told me since the very beginning of my diagnosis that my disease is incurable and terminal. Yet, almost 5 years on my current medication has encouraged my, perhaps fanciful, belief that somehow, just maybe, I can escape what…

Mother's Day 2019 - How My Mom Balances Me

Mother’s Day 2019 – How My Mom Balances Me

Four years ago I wrote a Letter to my Mom. I cried as I wrote it, unsure how many more opportunities I’d have to share my love and appreciation for her on Mother’s Day. I still don’t know how many…

CEA Snakes & Sticks

CEA Snakes & Sticks

Three days after my last scan, I went in for my monthly labs. I wasn’t worried because my scan had come back unchanged from previous months and I thought I was in the clear for another 12 week interval. Of…

Live Every Day Like It’s Your _First_ (Update # 15)

Live Every Day Like It’s Your _First_ (Update # 15)

Last year I met with a shaman (side note: it was totes kosher because he was half-Jewish – a Sh’ma’n?). The shaman was awesome, and mostly what you probably imagine a shaman to be: wise, magical, smelling of sage. He…

Reminder: Anyone With Lungs Can Get Lung Cancer

Reminder: Anyone With Lungs Can Get Lung Cancer

Last week, I got a message out of the blue from an acquaintance: “Lisa – I just wanted to send you a note of thanks for sharing your experience and being so open. I went to get a chest X-ray…

If a Milestone Falls in the Forest, Does it Still Make a Sound? (Update #14)

If a Milestone Falls in the Forest, Does it Still Make a Sound? (Update #14)

Five years ago today, I checked into the hospital for an out-patient biopsy that was supposed to be NBD and woke up to the worst news of my life. In general, I don’t mark my “cancerversaries.” I prefer to reserve…

Puzzling Challenges

Puzzling Challenges

We have a friend that’s super into very challenging wood puzzles. I got curious about her hobby a couple years ago and she sent me a few to try. They were some of her more entry-level puzzles, but I still…

What I Bought for Black Friday

What I Bought for Black Friday

It took me almost a year after the diagnosis to buy anything for myself that wasn’t related to my medical care. In late 2014, finally feeling well enough to enjoy strolling around our local town, I vividly remember wandering into…

The Sometimes Optimist

The Sometimes Optimist

I always sigh when fellow LC patients say “it’s been a rough stretch,” like it’s some kind of aberration when our community loses someone special (or a few someone specials in a row). Death is such a constant in the…